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NEVER LET THIS GO…

November 26, 2006

We were walking together… Hand in hand that time. We were talking, casually like friends always does. It was amazing… It was making me fluster, when i think of it… But then again, i was happy. Happy by the fact that u were just there, walking with me, holding my hand like there was nothing wrong. You smiled at me, i smiled back. It was nothing like i ever expected… But I knew it was a dream… but it is a very weird dream… it seemed so real…

"You okay? U seem to be bothered by something…" I heard him say.

"Oh… No… I was just uh… well yeah, i am thinking… of something." I replied.

"Oh… care to share? I mean, i really won't force you if you need to keep it to yourself."

"No… haha… well… what i am thinking is… we never really get to be like this… i just find it weird why now." I told him, speaking my thoughts out.

 

"Ahh… haha… well, let's just enjoy this now… me too… i'm happy that we are like this… i mean, we can't do this for real… that's why i am contented dreaming like this." He confessed.

"Haha… Yeah… Wait? Did u say u were contented dreaming like this?" I asked, my face confused.

"Yeah… dreaming…" He turned around. "This is the third time i saw you again in my dreams… You don't know how i waited… every night. In my drunken slumber, i wanted to be with you."

"Me?! Waited for me?!" I was surprised by what he said.

"Haha… You seemed so shocked…. Just like in the real world." He chuckled. "That's why i never flirted with you… i was afraid you would run away."

"WHAT THE HECK ARE YOU TALKING ABOUT?" I finally screamed what was bothering me.

"Haha… why are you shouting? haha… honestly…i wish this was real." He became serious.

"So you mean, u wish u can talk to me like this?" I questioned curiously.

"Well, kind of…" He held my hand in his. "But i know that will never happen…" He held my hand more tightly. "I can talk like this, because at least… this would stay in my dreams, and this would stay unknown to you in the real world." I couldn't process a single thing in my head, i was there, holding his hand…

"So… u mean… u wouldn't care if u never wake up?"

"Haha… Of course somehow yeah. 'Cause your here, but still… I want to be with you for real."

"Aww… That's really sweet. How come u wouldn't tell me this for real?"

"Huh?! No way! Do u want me to lose you forever?! There is no way i'm risking that… even if honestly… i am thinking of you more often that you think."

"I love you, do you know that?"

"I know that… U told me a thousand times, well… in the real world."

"Don't you believe me?" I curiously inquired.

"I don't want to… You're probably lying… But i want to believe though."

"Then believe me, cause i am saying it right now. I LOVE THE IDIOT U ARE"

"Then I love the… strong-willed, feisty you…" He smiled, hugging me…

"Well… do u think we'd stay long like this?" I asked him, not wanting to go.

"Well, we can't forever be like this… Somehow I would wake up and see u for real again. But I'll try to be back once again."

"Well… let's say goodbye, now… There's no telling when we would suddenly dissipate from this dream."

"No goodbyes… We'd always see each other… Just bye. No Goodbye."

"Okay… Bye then, love."

"Just that? No parting words?" He asked sullenly.

"Okay… I wish… That we would just stay like this forever, no saying byes and all… That this would be real, I want this to be real. That's why love, I say… Sayonara… I don't want to part with you."

"I may not repeat the same words… Just I love you. I want you to know that, that you will always be the person i love the most than the whole wide world. And the other girls i will meet someday. I love you more than them and all."

I heard what he said. It was ringing in my ears, he didn't want me to go… Ever. I decided to step far away from him, so as that myself will not stay. No matter how much it wants to.

"So that's that?"

"Well… yeah, I guess." I told him.

He pulled me around and kissed me… It was mind-boggling, earth shattering. I don't know how i could throughly explain what had happened. All i know was… it was something i will never forget.

"I love you…" He whispered to my ears.

"I love you too, love." At that moment, i saw his face… shocked..

"So you're…" I guess he knew already. I didn't have the desire to tell him what was it. I turned around and walked away. I woke up from that certain dream.

 

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