Haayst…

Minsan di ko alam kung anong iisipin ko. Katatapos lang namin gawin ang project sa Filipino, pero hanggang ngayon… hindi parin ako over dito…

 Nagkaroon kami ng research sa kahirapan… Kung makikita niyo lang ang statistics… grabe. haayst. pakiramdam ko… malubha na talaga. dagdag pa sa hirap ng loob ko dahil ako ang gumawa ng video. Hindi masama ang loob ko na ako ang gumawa ah, kundi… ako pa kasi ang nakakita ang nakapanood ng documentary tungkol sa kahirapan.

 ambigat. families eating rice with salt as flavoring. just that. nothing else. “solve” na daw sila dito… Samantalang ako, kain ng kain ng cake. Gastos ng gastos ng pera… sa isang araw… ang P175 nila hindi kasya para sa akin… pero sa kanila, malaki laki na rin iyon. maaring pantawid gutom na. isipin ninyo pa ito. 5 sila sa pamilyang iyon. pinagkakasya ang isang latang sardinas… at kalahating kilo ng bigas.

 amputa. sorry for the word. pero… alam niyo yun. PWEDE PALA ANG GANOON. Iba nga naman talaga ang sinuwerte sa buhay. Kaya ako galit sa mga nagsasayang dito. NAGING MAYAMAN LANG SILA, DAHIL SA MAGULANG NILA… Hindi dahil sa kanila ang perang iyon. Oo, inaamin ko naman eh… Magastos ako, pero… never did I take for granted what God gave me. Naappreciate ko yun.

 Everyday, He reveals Himself to me. Minsan, masakit… Minsan, masaya… Ewan. He works His wonders. And I… I am continuously amazed by it.

Sssshhhh…

Haayst. Di ko alam panu maeencompass yung feelings na ganito. Grabe. Parang kinabahan ako dun ah. Shet. Hahaha.

 I was texting this guy, and this guy… well nagpaparamdam and joking at the same time. E syempre diba, baka mamaya ma misinterpret ng daddy ko yun. And alam mo ba, he seemed to talk to my mom after me seeing him actually read my messages. Feeling ko may sinasabi siya sa mom ko and everything blah blah blah boyfriend and all.

 Pero syempre, my mom won’t believe it naman. Haha. She knows I’m too weird for that. Haha. =)) Lol. Chaka, para sa kanya wala yung mga ganun… Bwahahaha. =)) Kasi I love David Cook eh. Nyaha. Good thing alam ng dad ko na I’m having a crush on Oreo. Eh di naman Oreo nakita niya dun eh, so… haha. =))

 SANA PARANOID LANG AKO. Ayoko pa naman yung nalilink ako sa di naman si David Cook, Brad Womack… at Oreo.

Maybe…

September 11 - Was neko-chan’s birthday… I’ve never felt really at home with my IT course. Syempre, shifter eh. I shifted from accountancy. So hayun. Feeling OP. Pero, as the day progresses, and the more time I spend with them. I look back and realize that it wasn’t like before. Yung may ilangan, and everything. We could laugh at each other, crack jokes… Maybe, maybe… I can find my 2nd home… In IT.

September 12- Yesterday. Was YanYan’s birthday. )Woot. Chowking goodness. We ate Yang-chow rice. Haha. And that day, i lost a friend. Wahaha. A guy friend at that. Lol. He was being an ass. So. Iggy mode. Super rude he is. And super yabang. Sooo. Whatever.

 On the bright side, I had gone to text Oreo. At first I don’t believe siya nga yun… But I guess… It really was him. Haha. Oreo talaga.

To pity or Not…

I don’t know if I should pity myself. Once a seemingly destined love blossoms, it creates confusion. And then, I retreat.

 It has always been the same. Someone likes me, and I like someone else… And eventually, everything fails.

 I don’t know what’s wrong with me heart. It’s like. It’s dysfunctional. Gawd. If I just loved the people who loves me, then… everything’s happy right?

 But ALAS. Love does not choose. The heart does not choose who it will beat for, it just does. And sometimes, it’s for the wrong people or the wrong reasons.

 I just feel like banging my head. Super confused today. >.<

Amazingly…

Haha. it’s funny as i read words in my previous posts. purely innocent and sophisticated. now i am surprised to compare me now to the old me. Gawd. a lot of differences.

And. amazing. my blog is still alive here. how long wasn’t i around? 2 years? wow. amazing. i’m flabbergasted. now. time to write once again.